Transition 3

I have encountered another big transition from high school to college and that would be registering for classes, which I now offically hate being a freshman. As to why is this? because today freshman had to set times for registering for classes and of course being a Sanchez my last name is towards the bottom of the list so I got the last time for registering for classes. By the time I had to register for classes most of the classes I really wanted were all full, because all the upper classman plus sophomores have priority over the freshman so they get first picks and they took all the good classes that I wanted to take or needed to take for my major. So I was really stressed out this afternoon because I only had 9 hours total and I couldn't figure out how I was going to get 16 hours because I need 16 hours every semester so I can graduate in 4 years I don't want to be here longer than I have to be. Or pay for extra schooling that I don't need to be paying for if I can get it done in four years that is getting majority of it paid for anyways. Then I found out that the Anatomy and Physiology class got shrinked to 2 classes instead of four like they had in the fall. So it says full, but all I have to do is to get my professor's to sign off on my schedule sheet. So I was feeling a little better now that I have 13 hours now instead of 9, but the bad thing is that I can't get my FASFA if I'm not a full time student or have 15 hours at least and I'm still freaking out because I only have 13 and all the other classes that I want to take are taken or at the same time as my other classes and the bad thing is in the spring I had to schedule my classes around practice time, which was really difficult too. I had to redo my schedule at least 6 times to get it right to what it is right now. I found out that I could take 1 elective to get my 124 hours to graduate so I felt so relieved because my coach is teaching an elective Kinesiology class which is Theory Coach of baseball, soccer, and track. Thank god for that class because now I have fullfilled my 16 hours that I needed for the semester. The difference between college and high school was that in high school I didn't have to stress out about getting all my credits because they had plenty of classes for everyone to take and I didn't have to worry about paying for my student loans when I graduated from high school, but now I'm stressing out about my student loan that I have to pay for after I graduate which I have to start paying for this Christmas Break! oh how wonderful....

Relationships 2

I've learned from the passing of my best friend Emily Paige Wedgeworth that you can never take things for granted in life. No matter how many times a day you tell your parents or the people you care about you love them a million times and I tell  you that you make sure you tell them you love them every time you get a chance right before you leave or get off the phone with me because you'll never know when God could just take them from your life because it was there time to leave us. By the tragic accident that happened to my best friend till this day I can't forgive myself for the lose of my bestest friend in the whole world. We got in a huge argument about 3 hours before her bad car accident. The argument was so stupid and so small that we shouldn't even got mad at each other for it. The argument that we had was not worth the life that got taken away by my best friend. After we got in that argument we were so mad at each that we said we hated each other and didn't want to ever be friends with each other ever again that this was the end of our friendship. The minute I got off the phone I thought to myself I think this is the first time I've hung up on her with telling her I love you. After I got back from my friends house I drove home and I saw my dad's truck on the driveway. He was like 3 hours early than he normally was for dinner. My mom and sister looked like they were crying really hard. I started freaking out because I knew that no one in our family was sick so I couldn't think of what could've happened. They told me the worse news of my life that my best friend Emily got in a really bad accident that she died on impact. She got hit from behind and the truck ended up pushing her car into the middle of the intersection and she got t-boned by another truck on her side of the car and she died on impact. When my mom told me I was devasted because I wanted to take back all the things I said to her and tell her that she will always be my best friend. That I still love her and that I forgive her for all the things she called me on the phone. I just wanted her to come back so I could tell her all of that and that I was really sorry. Till this day I will NEVER forgive myself for what happened to my best friend. That from her death I NEVER take anything for granted and that I appreciate every little thing and always tell everyone I love them whenever I get the chance.

Mistakes 2

The ways I've came to make peace with my imperfections is that I would always tell myself you can't undo the past. The past is the past and you can't do anything to change it, so you can't dwell on the past you just have to move forward and learn from the mistakes. That's what I did to make me help forgive myself for the mistakes that I have done that have affected my life mentally and sometimes physically. For every time I would make a mistake in the softball field whether I was hitting or fielding and I made a stupid mistake or just made a mistake on accident I get my butt chewed out by my coach like usual and I am also very hard on myself and let it get to me too much sometimes. The bad thing about that is that it really effects the way I play the game and I really don't notice it until the game is over or the next day. When I ask myself why did I do that? To help forgive myself for those kind of mistakes are very hard for me, but I've learned that I have to let that stuff go or I'm just going to keep messing up more and make my mentally game really bad and physically game as well. Which means that it could really hurt the team because of me and I don't want that to happen. What I've learned from them is that no one is perfect and everyone makes mistakes so its okay to make one every now and then, but make sure you learn from them so you don't make the same mistake again, because if you do it will just make whatever situation your in 10 times worse than it needs to be. For learning wise I've made plenty of mistakes by not taking my work seriously by not doing it or by not turning anything in on time and letting my grades drop because I didn't care about them. By these mistakes I've made academic wise is that if it wasn't for making those certain mistakes I wouldn't be where I'm at today, because now it just makes me want to work a lot harder on all my work that I turn in because I don't like getting bad grades. By taking more time into doing my work it will improve my quality of work and help me get better grades for all my classes.

Transition 2

I must say high school and college are totally different like my friends have told me. From transition from high school and college are tremendously different in so many ways academic wise and athletics too. Being in college has definitely taught me a lot of lesson in life and sport wise too. I've learned that I definitely have a litte bit more time than I did in high school and that I need to manage my time a lot better to get my homework done, because if you don't get it taken care of it will start to pill up eventually and I learned that big lesson real quick and it sucked because I had to pull pretty much an all nighter and I've never done that before in high school so I was exhausted the next morning. It was a big wake up call for me. Since I've been up here at school I have learned that I had to grow up a lot more and start to learn how to be more independent now, because I am now on my own without my parents by my side to help me out every step of the way. That wasn't a too big of a transition because my parents definitely raised me to be independent so being away from them hasn't affected me that much because I already had to pay for a lot of things by myself already as it is. So it wasn't hard trying to stop leaning on them for money. I pretty much had that under control. A big change that hit me academic wise that the major that I want to major in here is the hardest one in Texas at Texas Lutheran University which is Kinesiology. I learned that by my first Human Anatomy and Physiology test. I thought I study really good too. I stayed up until 3:30 in the morning and I felt so confident and everything, but when it came to test day I didn't feel like I did that great and when I got that test grade back it definitely told me I wasn't ready for that test. From then on I knew the rest of the semester was going to be a struggle for me in that class, because I was so overwhelmed by all the information that we had to know for the test I couldn't memorize it all. Same for the lab we have connected to our Anatomy and Physiology class. When we had our midterm for that class..lets just say I was very lucky to even get that low of a grade, because I thought I did 10 times worse than what I got. The bad thing is that our lab is 25% of our Anatomy and Physiology class. So I am really nervous about this final exam after thanksgiving break that we have to take for lab, because I have to do really good to make my Anatomy and Physiology grade go up.

Mistakes

My feelings on mistakes and failures is that everyone makes mistakes and no one is perfect. Some people may think that they are perfect, but their not. They make mistakes too. That's just part of being human, we make mistakes as a person whether its being an athlete, student, wife, husband, boyfriend, girlfriend, best friend, and parents. The role that mistakes has played on me is pretty much everything I've been through so far in life. For instance, I have made plenty of mistakes as an athlete. If I didn't make those mistakes I wouldn't have learned from it to never do it again. Trust me from getting my butt chewed out by a lot of coaches definitely prevented me from making a lot of mistakes, because I got tired of them yelling at me and making me run everytime. From them yelling at me I've learned that if they didn't yell at me for those mistakes I would still be making them till this day in college for softball. For school wise I haven't made to many mistakes except for my freshman year of high school, I really slacked off with my grades and didn't want to do anything besides just chill with my friends and stay out late. Well guess what? it definitely kicked my butt for the rest of the years I was in high school. I had to work my butt off to get good grades the rest of the years to get my GPA up if I wanted to get into a very good college and graduate, because if it wasn't for that. I wouldn't have been accepted to Texas Lutheran University that I'm currently at right now or the other schools that I've applied at like Alabama and LSU and Ole Miss. I can surely say I've had my big ups and downs with my boyfriend of almost a year on December 20th. We have been through thick and thin and still do sometimes. We have been through the toughest things in the world to break us apart and hurt us, but yet we still come back to each other. It is hard to be without each other for along period of time. It was hard when I left for school, because he goes to school where I'm from and I go to school up here and its been the first time since we've been seperated from each other, because we are always together 24/7 during christmas break, summer break, and every weekend that I get the chance to come home. So this has definitely been a big test on our relationship, but yes we are still in love and together till this day.

Relationships

What I've learned from Dr. Hettinger's passing is that you can't take things for granted, because you will never know how quickly they can be taken away from you. My mom has always told me that bad things always happen to good people and good things happen to bad people. I've never quite understood that until my mom explained to me that God does that to test your faith with him to see how much you believe in him with your prayers and your faith to him to see if things will get better. When my favorite Uncle Juan passed away last year I didn't understand why he didn't get to live as long as everyone else and all the other bad people get to live longer than him. He was on 45 when he passed away. I was very upset, because he taught me everything I know told about old cars and how to work on them and fix them up. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't know how to work on my car when it breaks down on me or how to fix it when it wouldn't run at all. The mustang I have wouldn't start at all, but he taught me how to work on all that stuff and I got it to run within a year and half. I am very thankful for him and I wish I got to spend more time with him before he passed, because he meant so much to me. Ever since I lost him I don't take anything for granted. I cherish every minute of the day and every moment I get to have with my family, boyfriend, and my closet friends that mean everything to me, because now I know that they could pass away at anytime. I don't know what I would do without any of them, because they have always been there for me thick and thin good and bad. They always know how to brighten my day and make me smile when I'm really having a bad day. I just really appreciate the time I have with all of them because I will never know when they will go. Since I have lost my Uncle I make sure I always tell everyone how much I love them and how much they mean to me, because I want them to know how much they meant to me if they were to pass away the next day. They are the things that mean the most absolute world to me. They are what really matters to me.